i know im a failure!

didnt eat for 2 days but little nibbles of stuff at work to keep from passing out..

today i had a salad w chicken..600 cals bc there was NO dressing!! go me or what??

im going home for a week on thursday..god help me!! if i get caught with this im dead!! but i have enough days to pump myself up to not fail!!



im hoping to stay under 600 a day..when i work i can get away with zero cals which is great..i can tell im losing inches but not lbs..i guess id rather have that then nothing right? ha i guess!!

oh update..im at 153..from 178

to avoid food im sitting in my living room blasting music and reading other thinspo blogs and pictures..if i can get pass 9 ill be ok bc i never eat at night..i can feel this is it for me..its my time to get those long thin legs and beautiful hip bones..delicate arms
..my collar bones are already showing thru the fat!

oh i decided to write the calorie limit for the day on my hand..hope it works

day 2 eh

ok so today wasnt too bad..

i had a philly sub..and i walked and played football so i burned it all off

i worked so i was on my feet for a good solid 5 hours! but i want my training to be over so i cant try anymore stupid food!!


beach tomorrow..so doing a work out at the beach!

day 1..recap

so day one went well all day at the beach playing volleyball..burning serious calories! then i went out to eat for bbq..did well salad with some steak and watermelon..not to shabby..avoided brownies and ice cream!!

yay!! anyways day 2 so far is going well..just woke up so i couldnt have eaten yet! then off to work..i serve so im running around like a mad person!

my ex said i look crazy skinny in my bikini yesterday woohoo!!

i weighed in a lb less too!!