trying to fix it

ok..im actually posting again wow i know!!

i just joined a gym..went 2 times so far..

hour and half first day
hour today!
2 hours tomorrow!!

ive been trying to stick to 500 or less..today was hard..really craving after working out

but tomorrow i dont even have food scheduled into my day..isnt that awesome!
i joined a mini fast with my friends at my fav site!! started after dinner tonight and goes til tuesday night which is great bc im too busy to eat and i have a major event this weekend..god help me!!

doctor visit last week made me really step on the scale..162 lbs wtf!! anyways lost 2.5 lbs and it wasnt water weight bc i drink like a fish!!

oh and anyone studying ochem..god help us!!!

march..madness?

im going mad! ah thank god its april

no food tomorrow

sorry for the lack of updates but my lack of control has led me to focus on school and work but to my disappointment are still just so-so

why cant i succeed in anything? im mediocre at best at whatever i do

i need control back
focus
drive
determination
110 or bust