uh sorry

i know its been ages, its been really busy for both angela and i, school, work, boyfriends, moving, life haha

anyways were  both pretty much where we were..its sad and fustrating

now im determined to lose all this nasty weight bc i was in a swimsuit for valentines day and wanted to throw up!

hmph

ok so i need to vent..i am a shitty student..i used to be straight A's, honor student deans list..perfect! oh and skinny then COLLEGE! i was ok then i did bad in school and drank and ate everything and anything! now im huge and chubby, on academic probation without any student aid because i was too depressed to actually do anything..now im trying to pick myself up..slowly but surely..is it working..i dunno yet

someone did say i looked skinnier yesterday..which was good..i did fast most the day until i found out it was grocery day and i had to make dinner..baked chicken with mashed potatos and corn..and bread with butter..the enemy of enemies..i ate some chicken had 2 small scoops of potatos and 3 heaping spoons of corn..and like 5 pieces of bread..only 1 was buttered..then dessert!! chocolate cake wtf was i thinking i wasnt even tasting anything..just scarfing down bite after bite unti li looked down and there was nothing left

anyways i feel like a shit head..fat and ugly..really ugly today..i was going to post pictures but if i did i think i would cry and just throw my computer into the wall!!!!!!!

anyways i havent eaten today..i dont want to eat every again..fast forever and be happy ..why cant i just be normal and stay skinny? everyone else is either perfect or obese to the point to it being disgusting..actually its always disgusting and fat is just gross to look at..

so even though i broke day 10 fast, im not giving up, im NOT letting food win, im NOT losing this fight..

today is day 11-150 calories

yes i messed up and yes i know i should start over but im going to keep at this..im a FIGHTER!]

oh and how do other people eat just as much or even more than me and lose weight.but i just stay the same..even gain?!?

follow your heart girlys..follow it to the bone

update!

ok so day 10...its school time, meaning i can update more frequently!! today is a fasting day..so far so good!

finally..

sorry ive been without a computer because i was moving, all is well now

anyways both angela and i have been sticking too abc pretty well..updates soon!!

groceries..by Angela!

Last night I went to the grocery store. I loaded up on tons of really great things that will last me a LONG time. I bought 5 boxes of cereal and split. them up into 50 calorie baggies so i won't have to measure it out everytime I decide I want some. I also did the same with pretzels and carrots. I bought some 100 calorie packs and split those up into 50 calorie baggies as well. I also bought: 50 cal fiber one yogurt 50 cal string cheeseTurkey breast (50 cals for 3 slices)EggsWheat buns for 100 cals per bun ( i eat only one half of the bun at a time)cup of soupceleryorangesapplesHeres the kicker though. I was walking around-pushing my cart-and the bakery happens to be riiiight next to the produce section where I shop. So, without even realizing what I was doing, I pushed my cart on over to the bakery, to the donuts, and grabbed a huge package of donut holes (MY FAVORITE, I have a horrible awful terrible sweet tooth :( :( ) and just put them in my cart and walked away. I continued on shopping with those things haunting me. I totally snapped out of it and practically flew back to where I got them from and put them back!!! I would have gone home and literally eaten the entire package of them and basically wasted all of my money on that healthy food. I'm so glad I came to my senses! xoxo Angela

angela's progress..shes a beast!

Today is Day 4! 400 cals for today... piece of cake! I have done well so far, staying within my calorie limit for the first three days, and today will be no exception! I've already lost some weight but I'm not doing an "official" weigh-in until Sunday the 10th so I'll post my weight then! :) Pictures will also be coming soon. Get ready for a transformation! I'm stoked. Day 1 food intake:I already forgot what I ate the first day - this is why i need to blog more regularly!!! Day 2 food intake:Fuze Low Carb drink: 20 cals90 cal pack of rice cakes: 90 cals1.5 pieces of pizza hut pizza: 405Total:  515Day 3 food intake: 4 ritz crackers: 64 cals4 oz. boneless skinless chicken breast: 120 cals12 spears of asparagus: 25 cals 1/2 100 cal pack of cookies: 50 cals 1 Tbsp fat free coffee creamer: 30 cals Total: 289 cals :)I have day four all planned out but I don't want to write it down until it actually happens! No jinxing myself!I'll be writing another entry about my grocery shopping experience later on today. Stay tuned and Stay strong! :)

day 3

I had to drive 7 hours back to school today...uh hello exhausted?!

I did stay under 300 as did Angela who survived grocery shopping..she grabed donuts and then put them back...can you say control!!! Way to go!!

I had oatmeal and coffee early this morning then water all day...my bf wanted dinner and I got out of it by suggesting subway..ya still bad but I ate 1/4 of it so 160 cals!! Putting me at 300 exactly!!

I'm moving into a new apartment and might not be able to post for the next few days but its a 400 day then 100 which is ok cuz I work all day so no food

But remember the more you gain the more you have to lose!!

Peace and bones loveys!!